Thursday, October 20, 2011

If I had of listened, I wouldn't be in this position

I just read a letter from a boy to his girlfriend who passed away a few months ago.
I cannot think of anything more terrifying and sad. It's so sad. To have to talk to someone who cannot talk back anymore, ever again, is just so empty. To think that he'll never get the chance to see her again. I get a pain in my head just from that thought.
I have enough trouble dealing with not seeing the people I love enough already. There's always future with them. Even though they don't seem like they care as much, I still hope they do.
But he'll never know. She can never tell him she loves him and she'll never tell him that she's okay.
It makes me wonder what I would do if I knew that I didn't have long. I'd spend time with the people who make me feel the happiest. And I'm just so sad because she'll never come back and if that ever happened to me, my entire universe would collapse. And to think there was so many times where it could have happened to me, I just can't think.
It's in moments like these where I really need someone to tell me they love me.