Alot of really sad shit is going to happen.
But you know what? You can't cry forever. Your eyes will eventually get tired and they won't cry anymore.
So you know what I like to think?
When your in that moment of utter shitness, you realise that you are not benefitting whatsoever from feeling this way... So why feel this way at all?
To sit around and cry about things that are over is a waste of time. It's over. You're not going to feel better if you hate somebody or feel sorry for yourself.
So you accepted the things you did wrong. You understand they were wrong. You're sorry that it didn't work out the way you wanted. But its pointless to spend more than five minutes thinking about all the things that are wrong with you. It's a big fat waste of time and you could be doing something alot better than being miserable
That's why I seem like I don't care. I care. I'm just saving time by being happy.
If you, or other people have a problem with yourself, go a fucking head and try to be better.
Yeah it's my downfall. I try to be better all the time. This results in arguments, power struggles, low self esteem issues and a few multiple personality episodes.
But I'll try so hard to be better so that I don't have to waste time.
I'm an avid believer in doing what you want to do and not wasting time, if you haven't noticed.
I'm controlled by the id, and I really don't mind. Somehow it might be selfish.
Get the fuck over it because you can be happier. You can be less insane and more like the person you can be if you try.
Don't misunderstand me please. I don't like myself for all the things that I did wrong but I'm not going to improve if I feel like shit.
So I'll do whatever I want and be with who I want because I deserve to be happy, and so do you.
