I found this video, and this girl commented; "I might have just completely changed my opinions of marriage." And its so true, this video literally did change my opinion.
I never really thought marriage was a good idea. Well of course, when I was little I just perceived my life was going to be getting married and having children. And then one day I had an epiphany that not everyone gets married, not everyone has children, and some people choose to be that way. And then I got the idea what marriage was really horrible. I felt like it was a commitment that binded people together more forcefully than it should. So many adults I know get married and stay married just because they can't be bothered getting a divorce. And that is so terrible. I always tell myself that I'm never allowed to get stuck in a situation. I'm not allowed to be stuck because it's my life and I should live it happily, and obviously being stuck isn't making me happy.
But then you see videos like this one and I couldn't think of anything better than finding someone who you are so happy to spend the rest of your life with, and they never ever stop surprising you. And that is so fucking lovely.
And now, I'm legitimately conflicted. A lovely person once told me "I don't think you're against marriage, you just can't imagine it right now." And its probably true.
If I find someone who plays music to me, forever has new things to say, someone who understands, forever is fucking great then yeah I guess I'll get married. Maybe not legally.
But it will be like this and we'll have four children and two cats.
