My moods change so quickly, it's crazy. I'll see one photo of someone that makes me sad and my entire world will collapse and it isn't fair because no one should affect me anymore. I'm healing, repairing and getting over it all and it's not fair because I feel alone again. Today hasn't been a very good day, really. Sleeping wont make it better. But neither will wallowing.
I'll never be okay if I always think about the bad stuff. But there isn't anything to make me feel better again. It's really funny how quickly I can feel unloved. I need a constant stream of attention. I'm dealing, then I get angry and revengeful and never tired.
Then I say "Shut up Katie, you know people love you. You overreact unnecessarily and you're not supposed to be one of those people."
Instead I'll watch something that will make me feel better and get over it all. That's what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm supposed to suck it up and get the fuck on. And I can manipulate this mood to make me not ever feel guilty. Guilt is the worst kind of emotion because I'm a thorough believer in being selfish if you're the one that's right.
